Friday, September 30
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Don't forget about us
Don't baby, don’t baby, don't let it go
No baby, no baby, no baby no
Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go
My baby boy...
Just let it die
With no goodbyes
Details don't matter
We both paid the price
Tears in my eyes
You know sometimes
It'd be like that baby
Now everytime I see you
I pretend I'm fine
When I wanna reach out to you
But I turn and I walk and I let it ride
Baby I must confess
We were bigger than anything
Remember us at our best
And don't forget about
Late nights, playin' in the dark
And wakin' up inside my arms
Boy, you'll always be in my heart and
I can see it in your eyes
You still want it
So don't forget about us
I'm just speaking from experience
Nothing can compare to your first true love
So I hope this will remind you
When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us
Oh they say
That you're in a new relationship
But we both know
Nothing comes close to
What we had, it perseveres
That we both can't forget it
How good we used to get it
There's only one me and you
And how we used to shine
No matter what you go through
We are one, that's a fact
That you can't deny
So baby we just can't let
The fire pass us by
Forever we'd both regret
So don't forget about
And if she's got your head all messed up now
That's the trickery
She'll wanna have like you know how this lovin' used to be
I bet she can't do like me
She'll never be MC
Baby don't you, don't you forget about us
Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go
No baby, no baby, no baby no
Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go
When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us.
6:18 PM
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Thursday, September 22
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Ok, back to reality check.
I havent been studying much as per usual. But despite the usual routine of not studying since before the prelims, i still managed to "push the panic button" that O'levels are hitting down hard on me in about 1 months time.
Yet i've going out and all. I shall spare you the details of who i went out with.
Today school came and went just like that. I was moody the whole morning, again i shall spare you the details. But i sorted out my thoughts just before school ended so that i dun have to torture my classmates with my glum face when i go out with em', and also of other unseen reasons.
Ok, i've got my Beijing trip sorted out.
-dept--25th/nov/05
-arrive--30th/nov/05
But i still havent got my Bangkok trip settled. John hasnt replied me if he can make it despite the tight 'fit in' of the trip in between John's Turkey trip and my Beijing trip
John's Turkey trip
dept-7th/dec onwards
so it only leaves me with 7 days after i come back from Beijing to Bangkok with John and company before he flies off to Turkey.
10:31 PM
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Tuesday, September 20
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Anytime I need to see your face
I just close my eyes and
I'm taken to a place where
your crystal mind and
magenta feelings take up shelter
in the base of my spine
sweet like a chic-a-cherry cola
I don't need to try and explain;
I just hold on tight
and if it happens again, I might move
so slightly
to the arms and the lips and the face
of the human cannonball
that I need to, I want to
Come stand a little bit closer
breathe in and get a bit higher
you'll never know what hit you
when I get to you
Ooh, I want you
I don't know if I need you
But, ohh I'd die to find out
I'm the kinda of person who endorses
a deep commitment
getting comfy getting perfect
is what I live for
but a look, then a smell of perfume
It's like I'm down on the floor
and I don't know what I'm in for.
Conversation has a time and a place
in the interaction of a lover and
a mate,
but the time of talking,
using symbols, using words
can be likened to a deep sea diver
who is swimming with a raincoat
10:10 PM
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Monday, September 19
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Im now sitting in my sch computer lab after finishing some stupid NE quiz. haha. everybody's like having fun playing some online pool. whatever
I'm so freaking tired. i dun have any thing to blog now. see ya another time. tatas
10:23 AM
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Friday, September 16
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Im jus sitting at home all dressed up and ready to go meet DP. but that stupid woman is still at home sleeping. URGH!
Amanda's back in town and she's with kane + sch frens now. I guess i will be meeting soon. But i just wanna get outta the house right now. I dun like sitting at home with nothing to do clad in t-shirt and jeans!
Just almost everybody who is doing O'levels are not having fun, they're stressing out because they've either having prelims or they've got their prelims results back, which can be pretty depressing.
I know mine's a lil bit better than expected. At least i met with 2 of my targets that i set 2 months ago. But the rest that i know are not as good as they expected. Some hit the 40+range with an L1R5. Actually, I think i did much better than lotsa ppl in my class, its jus that i failed maths and i screwed up my combined science( the 2 farking core subjects)which i dunno why, but the rest are generally in the safe zone of c5 and above.
I swear Mr Eric Loh is a bitch, anything that comes outta his mouth can be either 2 things: Very Bitchy or Very sensible.
Mr Ravi jus cracks me up. Haha. She came into class yesterday with a chunk of Papaya on her dress. She didnt realise it till i pointed out to her. Haha! How embarrassing. So the whole day, i called her Mrs Ravi who loves Papaya. She got so fed up that she threatened to write nasty things on my School Leaving Cert.
I even have other names for her:
-Georgia (i dunno why)
-Mrs Labi
-Mother of all prefects (She fumes everything i say that)
-Mrs Ravi Rajalakshmi which means Queen of Wealth
-But i named her Raja-Papaya (Queen of Papaya)
Haha, just thinking of that makes me giggle of what happened in class.
Anyways. Im fed up of waiting, so im going to call her again. Sian
6:33 PM
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Sunday, September 11
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school is starting
results are coming back
emotions run high
9:31 PM
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Friday, September 9
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last night was crazy. dp john baojun kane and i decided to go cycling together.
i met baojun at her hse first to borrow her neighbours bike.(bedok mind you) then we took at cab down to dp's hse to meet her and john(macpherson road mind you) and from her hse we cycled all the way to town. met darren baker and his girlfren and kane too.
so from taka, john dp baojun kane and i cycled all the to newton for supper and then we headed on this major long journey from newton all the way to clay's hse. which was at beauty world. on a bicycle....
up till know my arms are still sore and my legs are still aching. i duno what made me decided to go with ahead with such a crazy idea of cycling so far.
anyways. we made an impromptu decision that we dp, john, baojun and i and maybe a few other ppl will go to bangkok on the 29th of nov till the 2nd of dec.
before that im gg to either shanghai or hangzhou on the 23th of nov to the 27th of nov.
quite rush right? haha. no choice
5:25 PM
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Monday, September 5
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Life suddenly became meaningless and a blur right before my very eyes, because im feeling like shit now. Shit in the sense that is so smelly and rotten that it can be detected like a few hundred metres away. All these its cos i failed by 1 BLOODY ROTTEN MARK FOR MY SS PRELIMS paper.... and to make it worst, everybody else that i asked online who are in my class passed by at least 2 marks or more higher than me. That Zhong was worst, he got 30/50 and he was like, "Fuck! i did so badly, i expected so much higher." im like, wah. save me that crap and leave me alone la!
Actually i also have got myself to blame too, i havent studied properly before the prelim and i didnt even look thru my notes for the last minutes. I think i actually know where my mistakes are for the papers but and i think i'll jus have to treat it as a lesson learnt.
Sigh, i dunno why im feeling so down jus cos of one paper. Prolly cos i know that i didnt do well for the other papers too. As in i didnt do well for most of the papers jus to correct myself and brace myself for the harsh reality. We all know that the truth hurts in one way or another, but this time the truth for me is like having a thousand swords piercing through my body one at a time, yanking it out and piercing it through again and having the blood jus squirt freely out of my very veins. And it is that bad.
Having to review what life is all about again is just another painstaking process of how i should plan for my lousy future and all that crap. The thought of jus ending my meaningless life as came across my mind a lot of times because my own future is in my own hands and im doing nothing about to make a better future for myself.
I shall not elaborate further, im jus gg to sit at home and comtemplate on how i shud make my next step.
9:48 PM
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Sunday, September 4
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This weekend was kinda crazy. Fridae morning i had chinese prelims and went home to rest for a while before gg to meet dp and poh. Went to Chijmes for some Jack Daniels event which had some Bourbon Pepsi freeflows. =).
Since we had the mood to club after a few cups of booze, Dp, Poh, Clay, Gerard, Yumin, John, Winona, some other ppl and I headed down to MS for cheekys. The music wasnt too bad, but Yumin didnt dance to lotsa music cos "Superstar" wasnt playing.. hahha. Met Shawn in the club too.
Sat was better, I had some stupid bdmnt tea reception in the afternoon before i was with Leo and Kenny at meridian slacking our lives away. Met the usual ppl and we went to LIQUID!. hahah. was great, but the beatbox competition was rather irritating and didnt end only till 12am. But overall we had lotsa fun even tho it was mother crowded...
Mum told me that she wants to go to Hang Zhou right after my O levels last paper...... And im suppose to tag along with some other non-impt ppl too.. im not all that excited to go but, o well... as long as im outta singapore's weather and into cooler climates im fine.
This coming Sept holidaes might be a mix of playing and studying, my o levels maths paper is 67 daes from todae. so ya. there we go. and i wouldnt wanna screw it up like i did for my prelims.
5:58 PM
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Thursday, September 1
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Mariah won both awards that she was nominated for: Worlds Best Pop Female Artist and Worlds Best R&B artist.
In addition, Mariah was honored with the awards for Best Female Entertainer Of The Year and Best Selling Single. Mariah now has 16 World Music Awards. More than any other artist has received till date.
Anyways, todae is pretty much another boring day jus wasting my life away. was suppose to study and prepare for tmr's chinese prelims paper and i didnt. i spent my time watching movies that i dl/ed from Ares which were Kung Fu Hustle and A walk To Remember. Both movies are equally good. Kung Fu Hustle was so funny i couldnt stop laughing at the way the dialogue was set. Its better without the subtitles, seriously. And A Walk To Remember is a majorly sad love story.
Ok, enough with the movies and back to reality. I've pressed my own panic button because the O levels are approaching in barely less than 2 mths time and i havent started getting serious with my studies.
I can predict that my prelims result is gg to be in a horrible mess cos after some of the papers, my frens were discussing abt the answers and it all seemed so unfamiliar to me.
Singapore is such a stressful place to live in. You dont have the time to sit down, relax and enjoy the wonders of life because the moment you are born, you are surrounded by peer pressure and stress. As an infant, you get pressured by your parents to start talking and calling them "daddy" or "mummy".
As a teenager, you are pressured and stressed out by the fast pace environment to keep up the same lifestyle as your friends and to do well in our studies.
As an adult, you stressed out about your wife, your family and your work because of money.
As an elderly, you stressed out about when you are going to die and how you should do up a will that will benefit all of your love ones.
Every single day of our lives are pressurizing and stressful. We may once in a while get away from reality and retreat in a resort... but its only for a few daes before heading back into the harsh and dangerous dog eat dog world.
sighh... i dunno. i jus wanna get away from this world where you get eaten up alive if you dont get stay competitive....
10:23 PM
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