Monday, October 31
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dp decided to be a witch
lazy sunkiss. he's always like that
3:04 PM
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the halloween shopping with sal turn out like this a few days ago.
2:58 PM
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ok. todae was quite tiring jus had chinese o's in sch the hall was freezin' brrgrr..... it was alright, not too easy nor hard ahh! next paper is SS... hmm.... have ta meet kane soon... then its Pimp"N'ho party @indochine. the new maths tuition teacher was good! ok boring...
i am lost, dying to understand.
2:07 PM
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Sunday, October 30
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[ x ] Spell your first name backwards - luap
[ x ] Where do you live - chinatown
Describe Your
[ x ] Wallet - LV api leather wallet and Guy laroche
[ x ] C0mb - no comb
[ x ] Toothbrush - normal ones
[ x ] Pillow cover - baby blue
[ x ] Blanket - baby blue
[ x ] Coffee cup - DKNY
[ x ] Sunglasses - no brand
[ x ] CD in stereo right now - er.. i use mp3?
WHO or WHAT (was/is/are)
[ x ] In my head - ma.brains
[ x ] you wish - i had all my wishes fufilled
[ x ] After this - sleep
[ x ] Person you wish you could see right now - you
[ x ] Is next to you - hp
[ x ] Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month - FUN! NO MORE O LEVELS!
[ x ] The last thing you ate - roasted duck rice
[ x ] Something that you are deathly afraid of - no friends
[ x ] Do you like candles - they're nice
[ x ] Do you believe in love - yes
[ x ] Do you believe in forgiveness - uh huh
[ x ] Who is your worst enemy - myself
[ x ] If you could have any animal for a pet - i already have one
[ x ] What is the latest you've ever stayed up - 2 1/2 days
[ x ] Ever been to Belgium? - nope
[ x ] Can you eat with chopsticks - duh
[ x ] What are some of your favorite foods - prawn noodles
[ x ] What's something that you wish people would understand - the true me
[ x ] What's something you wish you could understand better - purpose of life
[ x ] Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time - no
[ x ] my mother thinks i am: a wierd kid
[ x ] my grandma thinks i am: i hate her
[ x ] my boyfriend/girlfriend(or ex-s) thinks i am: if i had one
[ x ] your three best qualities - leader, independent, humourous
[ x ] three worst qualities - wierd, difficult to access,*shrugs*
[ x ] mAKes u happy - money
[ x ] upsets you - life
[ x ] you keep a diary - a blog
[ x ] you like to cook - hmmm. not my fav hobby
[ x ] you have a secret you have not shared with anyone - yes
[ x ] you bite your fingernails - ewww
[ x ] you want more piercings - more? i dun have any
[ x ] you want more tattoos - no, i'll regret em'
[ x ] you drink - uh huh
[ x ] you like cleaning - sometimes
[ x ] Have you ever cried over a boy/girl - who hasnt?
[ x ] you like roller coasters - *screams*
[ x ] ever lied to someone - that's life, full of deception
[ x ] ever been in a fist fight - almost.
10:57 PM
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Ok, i"ve spent like 45 mins changing the blogskin. This one seems nice. Simpler
Ahh! Chinese O's are tmr!!
9:33 PM
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7:29 PM
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Ok, lets to do a time check.
In approx:
1 hrs time--Dinner time
2 hrs time--Tv time
3 hrs time--revision again
5 hrs time--sleeping time
12 hrs time-- going to sch for my chinese o levels
24 hrs time-- going to Pimp'N'ho halloween party @indochine
1 weeks time--going to sch for my o levels main papers
3 1/2 weeks time-- i finish my o levels and im free!
1 months time-- going to beijing
1 months 2 weeks time-- going to bangkok with frens
2 months time-- NEW YEAR
amazing how time passes so quickily
amazing how feelings change so quickily
amazing how life as brought me thus far
amazing how ppl arnd me has remained like nothing has happened
amazing how i can remain numb for so long
amazing how i can remain sober for so long
amazing how i can carry on this nightmare for so long
life is sometimes full of shit.
7:03 AM
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Thursday, October 27
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THE TWO ITEMS BELOW THIS POST ARE SO TRUE ABOUT ME. CLICK ON THE LINKS AND GO CHECK IT OUT.
2:14 AM
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| Your Birthdate: July 30 |
Your birthday on the 30th day of the month shows individual self-expression is necessary for your happiness.
You tend to have a good way of expressing yourself with words, certainly in a manner that is clear and understandable.
You have a good chance of success in fields requiring skill with words.
You can be very dramatic in your presentation and you may be a good actor or a natural mimic.
You have a vivid imagination that can assist you in becoming a good writer or story-teller.
Strong in your opinions, you always tend to think you are on the right side of an issue.
There may be a tendency to scatter your energies and have a lot of loose ends in your work.
You may have significant artistic talent and be very creative. |
2:13 AM
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| Your Career Type: Enterprising |
You are engertic, ambitious, and sociable.
Your talents lie in politics, leading people, and selling things or ideas.
You would make an excellent:
Auctioneer - Bank President - Camp Director
City Manager - Judge - Lawyer
Recreation Leader - Real Estate Agent - Sales Person
School Principal - Travel Agent - TV Newscaster
The worst career options for your are investigative careers, like mathematician or architect. |
2:12 AM
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Tuesday, October 25
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*ahem* having a sore throattt now..
had no mood to study.
feeling restless
feeling unease
feeling impatient
feeling melancholic
feeling moody
feeling displaced
feeling insecure
When you cry so much about something, your tears eventually dry up and you dun even know if you are crying or not
When you've been hurt so much, it becomes numb even if a knife stabs you right in your heart
When you have too many surges of emotions all at once, you become numb to every sensation that tingles through your body.
When you become so restless over something, you become oblivious of your surroundings.
11:32 PM
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Thursday, October 20
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Talk about not treasuring something or someone till you lose them. Its sooo true.
In life, most of us only realise things the hard way. When given the easy way out, we take it for granted.
Life is unfair all the time, I had a friend telling me that somethings are not fair towards her, and I was like, "Life is unfair, chew on it".
O well, anyways, moving on with nicer things to read. I recently found out that i have a classmate who has the same perception of life as me. Speak about conincidental. Well, ok, I've got nothing much to post, I've got my O's coming up and it sucks.
Ciao
9:56 PM
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Tuesday, October 18
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I've often wondered if there's
Ever been a perfect family
I've always longed for undividedness
And sought stability
A flower taught me how to pray
But as I grew, that flower changed
She started flailing in the wind
Like golden petals scattering
Chorus 1:
And I miss you dandelion
And even love you
And I wish there was a way
For me to trust you
But it hurts me every time
I try to touch you
But I miss you dandelion
And even love you
I gravitated towards a patriarch
So young predictably
I was resigned to spend my life
With a maze of misery
A boy and a girl befriended me
We're bonded through despondency
I stayed so long but finally
I fled to save my sanity
Chorus 2:
And I miss you little sis and
Little brother
And I hope you realize
l'll always love you
And although you're struggling
You will recover
And I miss you little sis and
Little brother
So many I considered
Closest to me
Turned on a dime and sold me
Out dutifully
Although that knife was chipping
Away at me
They turned their eyes away and
Went home to sleep ...
Chorus 3:
And I missed a lot of life
But l'II recover
Though I know you really like
To see me suffer
Still I wish that you and I'd
Forgive each other
'Cause I miss you, Valentine
And really loved you
I really loved you -
I tried so hard
But you drove me away
To preserve my sanity -
And I lound the strength to break away
Fly..
5:11 PM
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Monday, October 17
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Solitaire is the only game right now
This game entertains only one, and no more than that.
I'm playing that game right now, the reality version.
Life is more or less a routine. Surprises, be it good or bad, can be pretty refreshing at times. Not that i care if its good or bad. I think I'm numb to such a thing already. It pays to be happening and all, it pretty much sucks to be lonely and all. So what's the deal? There's no deal... after all, we're here on earth, just to be put thru all these, for a particular reason. And sadly, I've not found that reason.
For now, its back to that lonely game. Until then, Ciao.
7:36 PM
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Thursday, October 13
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Sometimes, in life, we cannot expect everything to be smooth going. We must at least a few hiccups along the way. We cannot expect too much outta life. Its jus the way it is, afterall, they do not call 'Life sucks' or something like 'Life's a bitch' for no reason.
These few days havent been the best days of my life. It hasnt bad to a horrible state either, but i'm learning to cope along with it. I had learnt to pick myself up from where I fell. Learn from the bruises that are on me, take it as a lesson learnt, to move on with life, and not dwell on it. Its pointless for me to keep looking back and wish that changes have been made, to wish that certain things are avoided, and that is how I am feeling right now. Wishing things aren't the way they are.
What is the epitome of life? Is it to have self-statisfaction? Or is it to live everyday like there's no tomorrow? Whatever the answer is, its not nice. Nothing's perfect. Nobody in this world can actually have everything they want in the world. There is no such thing. No matter how happy a person is, there's got to be something missing from his/her life. And that could make or break a person.
Sadly, things are always taken for granted. You do no realise what you have until you lose it. It happens to everyone.
This is the end of my post, take your time to digest what I've posted.
9:47 PM
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Sunday, October 9
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Its about damn time I blogged. I've been studying lately. Havent been going out.
You know, for some reason, I'm starting to get annoyed with some of my classmates. I'm not pointing fingers to anyone in particular but it is getting on everybody's nerves.
O well, anyways. I got my report book back. And boy, I must say that Mr Ng is sure generous when it comes to moderating.
I've 15 for L1R4 and 26 for L1R5. Isn't that great? I have somewhere to go for the first 3 months, but what the heck.
Ok, this is Oct already, and practicals are starting this month. Next month is offically the O levels. Grrr, I jus wanna get this exams over and done with. I really wanna end this misery of having to countdown the days everytime i go to sleep.
Finally, I got my Bangkok trip settled for good, it's only left with the payment which I have to make before the 14th of Oct.
Lets Fly Together, Be Mine Forever.
1:19 AM
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Sunday, October 2
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Ok, this is gg to sound stupid but i havent been to town and hang out with Dp, John bla bla bla for 2 weeks already. I dunno, maybe i jus didnt felt like it
I jus had my Bangkok trip with Dp, John and Baojun more or less confirmed cos Bao's mom actually allow her to go cos she lied and said that we would be staying at MY relative's house in BBK. Whatever
I actually went to church yesterday and went for cell! Feeling a lil holy now and that it seems fun there. except that particular person whom i didnt really fancy was there.
Woke exceptionally early todae to find out two things.
1) i lost my soccer bet
2) My Thai relatives made a surprise visit to my house which was in a dreadful mess
O levels its in a while's time and the practicals are within this month. Yet i cancelled tuition todae. how sweet =). jus felt like it
Ok. that's more or less abt it. Amanda's gg back to Aussie this coming saturdae morning. gg to miss her. she had somethings cropped up again yesterdae. dun wish to elaborate.
2:34 PM
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