Wednesday, April 12
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Life has hit me 'expectedly' again.
I felt that it is something that is making me not do the right things at the right time and wrong things at the wrong time. Not that I'm blaming anyone but it is just that I feel I sudden have to face the reality of this world where setbacks are as often as car accidents.
I have approached Ngee Ann, Singapore and Republic polys. All 3 rejected me. So right now, its a long straight path down to ITE. Not that ITE is all that bad but sometimes I dont even understand my own thinking. Why is it that everyone has such a bad impression of ITE except the ITE students. Some people are actually willing to go into ITE despite the fact that they can go into some course in poly.
I am one of those who thinks that ITE are for those who cannot careless about studies and just study for the sake of studying and not sure what to do in future after graduation.
But I am a person who knows what I want to do in future, but the sad fact is that my maths is restricting me from doing LOTS of things.
So here's what are my plans and what I've carried out.
[PLAN A] I have registered for O's maths only, hoping that it can combine with my previous score for a proper entry into a poly.
[PLAN B] I have decided to do well in ITE and head to poly if Plan A fails.
[PLAN C] If all fails, then I just head straight to army after ITE and upon completion of army, I would head to a private instiution to further my studies.
And if all of these fails, its time for me to kill myself because it would show that I am truly hopeless despite all those plans...
I am not sure what to feel right now, cos it was less that an hour ago that I received news that I cannot get a place in RP, my latest appeal poly, which was quite a last minute move. Well, I can only blame myself for it as I was just adopting the sit and wait attitude.
[TAGBOARD] --To Aiken-- About damn time that you reappeared! Definately lunch someday! With diana. Just msg-ed her on friendster the other day. --To Tad-- Who the fuck are you? Its my father I am talking abt here. Not yours. So buzz off! You sure know how to chose a time to tell me "you ought to do some self REFLECTED'
12:59 PM
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