Wednesday, May 24
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Remember I blogged about reminicising the past cine days. Well, its back to haunt me again. Haha. Today, I was at cine to catch X-Men III, The last stand. It was very good. I'll highly recommend it to all of you reading this right now. In fact, I might watch it again cos it is that good. I WANT to tell you how the story goes but I shall be considerate and let you find out for yourselves in the theatre itself =)
Back to what I saying. A arrived a today at cine to meet us for the movie and she came emptied-stomach. So she decided to go to the Taiwan Shilin Snack Stall to get the XXL Crispy chicken.And 2 guys were working there. While there K called. Here's how it went,:
K: Where the F*ck are you?
Me:I'm at the F*cking Taiwan Shilin Snack Stall, F*ck.
K:Oh okay, We'll meet you at the Cinema level, bye.
End of phone conversation.
Little did I know that the guy working there was very offended by what I said on the phone about the stall. So he kept staring at me after I hung up the call. I realised what happened only after I looked up and saw him staring really hard at me. So how this is how it went,:
Me: What?!
Ah Beng 1: What the f*ck did you say about this place?!
Me:I said the F*cking Snack stall....? Anything wrong?
Ah Beng 1: *Pauses to stare*
Me:What's wrong man?
Ah Beng 1: You shut the f*ck up I tell you, you Bloody Asshole!
Me:Huh? Hey, relax man. What I said offended you?! Its not like you OWN the stall?!
Ah Beng 1: *Pauses to starE again*
Nice Ah Beng 2: Err... actually his mum owns the stall.....
Me: Ohhh... I see. Hey! Yo! Relax man. I didnt know that. I'm sorrryy thennn.....(I said it with so much sacarsm, haha)
**45 sec of awkward silence........ Ah Beng disappears behind for a while and reappears again. Still looking angry**
Me: Hey man, relax laa, take a chill pill.
Nice Ah Beng 2: *Hang signals to Hush*
Me: Ah whatever, F*cked up stall. (Walks away with A after collecting the chicken)
I cant believe that this kinda thing still happens la. haha. I was seriously not offended by him cos i cant blame him for being so lowly educated till he has to confront somebody like that.... The AH BENG WAY.. I know I'm more educated than to go and pick a fight with him. Haha. Its my mouth. I say what I want. Haha. Too bad you heard it.
If it was 3 yrs ago, Woah..... "Tai Zi" straight away man! Bring it on! hahah.
11:52 PM
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Topic 1
Asia - The left out continent as compared to the rest of the world.
You know, Mariah is having a concert and its going to be a summer tour. I'm real excited but there is one problem. The major BIG problem. SO big, that left me disappointed. Its a US ONLY TOUR! Fuck! What will her fans in Asia do? watch her concert on DVD's in a few years time from now? Hell no! I am going to do something about it. I will do something about it......... that's if its withing my capacity to.... haha.
Topic 2
I have friends.
I have a friend who is SUPER high maintanence. He will never settle for anything that is non-branded. He will have his way. He will do everything the high-end way.
I have friends
I have a few close friends. They are not super high maintanence. But still high maintanence enuff to burn a hole in pockets like mine. They'll not take a bus/train if its crowded and take a taxi even if its gonna cost a bomb. They'll shop in town and nowhere else. They'll think twice about hawker centres and coffeeshops.
I have friends
I have lots of friends. They are super easy going. They are not high maintanence at all. If Baleno or Giordano fits, they have no qualms about it. They'll take the bus/train even if its going to take forever to reach their destinations. They'll eat at hawker centers or coffeeshops and make no complains about it. They'll walk if its withing walking distances.
End of topic.
Random posting.
People do feel sad you know. The happier they look, the sadder they are when they're down. They tend to be more confused about themselves when things are not going the right way. Those are people that have lots bottled up inside them and will find it difficult to share unless they're drunk or anything along those lines.
Chew on it.
4:30 AM
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Tuesday, May 23
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Okay, help me out here. Im bad at remembering which date i posted till. But what the heck....
So anyways. the weekend was rather eventful. Saturday was Chronic ( is this the correct spelling? urh. whatever) and it was - not to be mean - but a failure. I saw loads of ex-barker people showing up but only a handful could get in because why.....? It was held at indochine@wisma..... Don't the clubbers out there know that parties held at Indochine@wisma is known for underagers? So, the bouncers decided to be extra strict..... They ID-ed you when you go in..... They ID you when you re-enter.... They ID you when you come out of the toilet......Not forgetting that the bouncers confiscated a thick stack of ID's that people tried to get pass with.
The music was kinda what i'd call -economic rice- cos all the genres of music are literally badly mixed together. First minute you get Hiphop/Rnb then the next minute you get Techno and the progressing to Trance and suddenly Commerical Rock/pop. I was seriously in need of earplugs so that i will not intoxicate myself in such a bad remix of songs. And to make matters worst, the place got raided.... I dunno, thankfully i was outside 9/10 of the time chatting with other friends.
So thank gooodness there was sundae as it was Happy day, with no pun intention. Haha. The music there was AWESOME! They play all kinds of music and you do not get "Genre Shocks" where R&B can suddenly change to Trance/Techno. They remixed it so well that its really great to dance to. They can remix Mariah's Don't Forget About Us to something that was fantastic for the dance floors. Seriously, Happy is a place for music lovers of all kinds.
And today, Monday. Kinda woke up on the wrong side of the bed. Shall not go into it as I cannot be bothered. But met Cal for a lil shopping today. That !@#$%^# said WE would go shopping, but i ended up the only one buying stuff. Whatever........ So the "shopping" trip ended with a hearty feast at NYDC heeren. Ate a lot, quite a lot to be exact and now here I am typing away at 4am exactly feeling a lil hungry. Bahh..
I think i'll force myself to sleep in jsut a while and force myself to go to the gym later on in the afternoon.
Aiights, that's for now. Will Blog again soon.
P.S New Urban Male has not replied me yet. =(
3:47 AM
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Saturday, May 20
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Parties, Study, Sleep, Bum, Hang out....This endless cycle has to end or I'll grow fat...
Well, given my size, that might not happen till maybe 10 yrs down the road.
Gosh, today I passed by Cine and I thought that I wouldnt see anyone familiar there, I mean like, that place is so 3 yrs ago.
Yet I saw at least 13 ppl I used to hang out with or actually know....
Back in da good 'ol days.... Weekdays are filled with students like me in uniform heading straight to Cine's bowling alley to drop my bags and then head down to have lunch. Before you know it, and endless stream of students of around my age are flooding the entire complex. Lunch would be a painstaken process as we sit down and chit chat non-stop abt the happenings of the whatever timings.
Then its back to the Bowling alley to sit around do nothing or maybe try and look intelligent and study a lil. Chit chat once again till evening where many would have gone home and maybe leaving a few behind. These few would usually include me and dinner would be included before all of us part ways to go home. This cycle would be repeated from Mondays to Thurs.
Fri's and Sat is almost the same. Jus that we are in street wear. Hanging arnd in large groups everywhere and be the centre of attention cos of our loud chattering. And maybe if we feel like it, we might create a lil staring game with unknown people and create a lil fight that leads to lots of bazaar. Leading everyone to call everyone they know down to the venue and before long, that place, usually outside cine, would be filled with at least 50 people of like 2nd or maybe 3rd degree friends who are backing all of us up with that lil "tai zi" we created.
Hahaha, how much fun we had laa.. but now, that place is jus filled with all the unknown people who are tryin to make it happen. Wierd dress sense, crazy hair do, etc etc etc.
Well, its always a time in life where we would miss a part of our lives where we had the most fun and wish that it would happen all over again. But we know that it will NEVER happen because we are always trying to catch up with time.
Okay, enough what that reminiscing of the past. Some random pictures for you....
2:46 AM
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Sunday, May 14
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Stress brings out the worst in people, it brings people to their lowest and angriest point. They lead people into a state of confusion. You know you are at the lowest point in life when you are in a state of confusion as you see people rejoicing or mourning.
That's what I call numb.
Numb to the point where you are actually trying to remember to feel how is it like being just a little happy or sad, let alone the extremes of both ends. Numb to the point that even though you are at gun-point, you are still so composed and trying so hard to understand why they look so estactic when they have realised their dreams or crying till they have no more tears when their loved ones are gone. Numb to the point that your heart cannot break anymore because its already in a million pieces and you cannot cry anymore because there are no more tears to cry....
Not surprisingly to myself, I just found out that I'm a person who is trying so hard to understand what is it like being happy or sad... Trying so hard to understand what is the purpose in life. Trying hard everyday to please the people around me who have placed hopes on me, hoping that I will become the person that they dreamed of. Trying so hard that I've completely lost myself along the way, unable to see what is ahead of me and what I initially dreamed of achieving...
People always tell me that there is always a turning point in life where you start afresh, fresh like a blank piece of paper waiting to be illustrated and molded into who I truly am suppose to be. But that point in life seem so very far away that I might give up along the way, just to see a glimpse of it....
Family members are suppose to be the only ones closest to you apart from your friends. They are suppose to be there to console you when you are down, to celebrate with you when you are happy, to guide you when you are confused and lost, to walk with you when you're alone, to let you feel wanted when you are outcasted, to bring you peace when you are frustrated and to let you open up without fear of being laughed at when you hold a dark secret.
I can tell you all these so easily, but I've yet to be able to experience it for myself.
Its true when they say that when a person looks happy and cheerful all the time, they are actually extremely sad and isolated deep down inside. A self defense mechanism to protect yourself. The mind will betray the heart that it actually is not alone and has many reasons to celebrate.
Right now, I know I've been betrayed.... many times.
4:07 AM
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Saturday, May 13
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At the present moment, Im rather ticked off.
I have an ex-classmate and I was not very fond of him from the start. So lets name this person AAA.
AAA had an idea right from the very beginning that he wanted to have a class reunion and all that stuff but it was not put to action cos he didnt bother to.
So one day, I too, decided to have a class reunion. I contacted everyone and let one of my ex-classmates to contact AAA and tell him abt it. I also ask him to pass the message to AAA that he might be in charge of alcohol and he needs to get back to me ASAP. Apparently, he gave me the impression that AAA was super difficult to contact when he's just a fone call away. So i decided to get the alcohol myself. but little didnt know at that point of time that the particular ex-classmate was not very fond of AAA because of some recent issues too. And he kept giving excuses not to call AAA and all. WTF right? Harlo! if you dun like AAA then tell me la. i ask someone else to do the rest.
Exactly a week before the reunion was abt to take place and everyone else knew what they are suppose to bring and where the reunion was held and all, AAA msged me and asked me if i needed him to bring anything or what. I was rather irritated at that point of time that he got back to me only then. So i told him that no need and he jus needed to show up and i told him that i will confirm everything with him the next day abt the rest of the details.
But i forgot all abt it the next day. So naturally when someone does not get back to your as mentioned. you will contact that person back right? esp when it is one of your ex-classmates organising something like a class reunion. BUT AAA DIDNT GET BACK TO ME! HELLOOO.... ORGANISERS ARE BUSY PPL YOU KNOW?
I was only reminded of AAA the nite before the reunion, so i msged him myself and told him all the rest of the details. But the very next morning, AAA msged me again telling me that he cannot show up cos he got a splitting headache and all and he was seeing a doc. I was like huh?
And now i jus found out thru AAA's blog that he was lying and he didnt see a doc. he was running arnd town after sch with his other frens till midnite before he got home!!! And inside that same post. he said that he didnt like the fact if ppl didnt like him or whatever, they shud tell him straight in the face and not backstab him or give excuses etc.
So obvious its pointing to me that he didnt like the fact that if i didnt want to invite him, i shudnt have waited till last min to tell him of the plans?!
Harlo! i did invite him lor. Now i dont know what was told to him via that ex-classmate that i asked to contact AAA that made him say this kind of thing.
Aiyah. whatever la. irritating ppl one by one.
4:41 AM
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Thursday, May 11
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Haha. This is a long awaited entry.
Im sitting at home doing nothing and finally decided to post this Since its Darren's Wedding.The only missing picture here is a picture of the Bride & Groom. Which we didnt have a chance to take with cos he was so busy entertaining other guests.
So anyways, the drinks were free-flow for everything till 10pm that nite and we jus kept ordering. i had a
[QuickFuck, BlowJob, Kamakazi, Sperm Shooters. 4 Specially concocted drinks by the bar. A Double Flamin Lamborghini, a Champagne, A Heineken and a Lychee Martini]
I was quite drunk by 1030 and was lying on the day-bed trying to sober up.
I remember lots of my colleagues were poking fun of me. You idiots. I'll have my revenge. hahha.
So as I'm typing, mandy, jeremy, alvin mayrou bla bla bla are at MOS right now.I might go tmr. haha. Smoove in main arena. WHOOHOO!
Neways, pictures of Darren's Wedding nite.
Goof @ Loof. haha.
2:49 AM
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Thursday, May 4
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When I was a kid in my pre-school years. I was the apple of the family. Armed with a sharp tongue and witty brain, I was able to amuse everyone around me.
When I entered Primary School, I always thought that I was stubborn and talkative. My teachers always needed to find a way to shut me up as I was one of the loudest in class. I got into trouble a few times in school and twice with my principal and I always took everything I had around me for granted. But they all never looked at me as a hopeless child. They never gave up on me as they knew that it is just my playfulness. But overall, I got along well with most teachers and classmates with enemies that are few to non.
Secondary school shaped me. It had given me many chances to bring out the best in me, but I threw a few back into their faces by disappointing them with my foolishness. Throughout secondary school, friends knew me as the infamous Prefect. Teachers knew me as the outspoken one. Though never the academically inclined one, I always took up leadership in many different areas that molded me into who I am today. No matter how difficult the challenge was, I somehow would still find a way around it. I thought it could be applied into my exams which I never took it seriously. My PSLE was done half heartedly, all my secondary school exams were done without much preparation and I managed to get promoted. So, stuck with this mentality that it would happen the same to my O's, I went into the exam hall with last minute preparations. Though it felt like much of a breeze, my results slapped really hard to wake me up.
Now, facing the consquences of my unflattering attitude, I am stuck in the middle of nowhere.
These few days are filled with curiosity and anxiety. It so bad that it comes to a point of restlessness and extreme self-hatred.
I blame myself so hard for screwing the most important exam in this very unforgiving society. A society that sucks you dry and dumps you aside after you have lost your worth.
Having to face rejections one after another, you become numb to the disappointed. Life has became a bitch to me and it has bitten me hard in the ass telling me that I should kick aside that unwelcoming attitude towards the people and things around me.
I want to tell myself there is still a ray of light at the end of the tunnel. But the long and harsh journey has taken a toll on me and I'm close to giving up the fight. My soul is dying and my flesh is weak. I'm mentally and emotionally drained.
I am very exhausted.
Lord help me.
Goodnight.
1:23 AM
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Wednesday, May 3
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THIS IS THE FUTURE OF THE MRT.
I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE THINKING.
WE ARE ALL GOING TO BE BLURRRR SOTONGS! BAHHAHAHA!
3:08 PM
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These are pictures from Marcus's and Darius's birthday. haha. scroll down and you spot marcus smiling for the first time in front of a camera nicely! candid shot tho. haha
It was at hanabi
3:04 PM
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Okay, this is the new template.
Had taken such a long time just to hunt for this simple yet a lil touch of MCP thing to it
Gimme your comments.
1:49 AM
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Tuesday, May 2
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Okay. Its been such a long time published abt the happenings of my blog.
Lets start of with what I can remember.............
24th April.
That's the furthest back i could recall.
Mum & I decided that I register for SIM and at the same time wait for all the polys to reply me.
Did i mention that i quit my job at loof? i think so rite. hhaha. So on this day, I registered at SIM with Maylou. Freakin $52.50 just for the registration. Seriously.
Errr........ since i've been bumming so im bad with dates.
But i recall tonning at kane's hse with clo. we swam the whole nite till sunrise and was uber tired. I didnt sleep when i got home. Instead, was bumming arnd and waited till 9.30 to head down to PS to get mum a new fone. Nokia 7230 i think.....
Headed to Singtel ComCentre at Somerset to get my Sony Ericsson W800i. By then it was already 1.30 pm.
Headed home to take a nap.
Got fussed by kane to wake up and head to poh's chalet. It was aiight. It was her birthday so i stayed for a while more before it got quite boring.
Headed over to kane's hse again with clo and trace and swim again. this time amanda, joyce and deborah came over. I was seriously lacking of sleep that amanda and i headed home the moment the clock stuck 6am.
Then did nothing till recently met up with kane and sally again for a supper and all.
errr... okay. then i was online in the afternoon chatting with my ex-classmates toying with the idea of havin a class reunion.
So once again, i was the organiser. Geez. would somebody step up to the job already.
And the plans are now concrete. It will take place this Friday, 5th of May.
Finally, todae. kane and amanda were at acid bar getting a few drinks. it was before long when amanda called me and said that kane was high on a glass of red wine. i was like. HUHHH.....?
bahahhaha. it was rather hilarious to see kane in an unusually high spirit.
Okay, before i decided to blog this long awaited entry. i was chatting online and cal gave me this link. it was a blog of 2 gay boys in singapore of my age. their entries consisted of their dates and their daily happenings.
Sadly, there are a lot of ppl who are not open minded abt their relationship and was flaming them. poor thing.
O well, that's singapore for you. a society that always remains to be conservative due to the majority ageing population.
I want to change my template but im uber lazy. somebody help me?
4:05 AM
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